nothing's happening inside me. really just nothing. in a way, it's pretty embarrassing. it's not like literally nothing is happening. me and some person have had a conflict and i wholeheartedly believe despite all they say it was my fault. now nothing is happened. im no longer sick so im back to school and i have even less time to be someone useful. i have even less time to try to have fun with my friends. time and time again... it's just embarrasing i feel so useless and hopeless and... i just really want to get all of this over with. i need normalcy. i CRAVE it. i feel like im falling apart. its... my end is near. its not even wrong. i just feel so sorry for people i cant or couldnt have spent enough time with or treated well enough.